Girl I Fucking Loved You

Girl I Fucking Loved You

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(First cry first help)

I loved you girl...

You were my world...

Now I watch

-as everything seems to just unwind

-behind all of my past mistakes

-that I've made...

All shit I'll take back to my grave...

I'm going insane...

Each day that goes by...

More pain gets added to my life...

It's like I'm dieing inside...

I'm crying at night...

So much that I am trying to find...

I'm just looking for life here amongst the un-known...

Still chasing a dream that I'll never know...

Forever been broken...

Forever never going back...

Because I will always remember my past...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(Second cry for help)

I really loved you girl...

I thought you were the one for me...

Now look at what the fuck you've done to me...

I'm done you see...

It's dumb to me...

The way that

-some people can be...

I just don't understand...

Why I couldn't be your man...

What went wrong with the plan...

It seemed so right at first...

And then one night...

Everything in my sight...

Happened to burst right before my eyes...

All of these

-hi nice to meet you

-nice try's... 

Nice lies

-nice guys end up in the past...

I swear man I will never back...

I will never fucking forget my past...

I will never be able to out live the regrets that I've got now...

I'm fucking falling from the top down...

I'm about to get hurt...

-So much I just wished that I could make work...

I feel so alone on this earth...

And it's only gotten worse for me since birth...

I can feel my heart now trying to burst...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(Third cry for help)

I really loved you...

I thought that nothing could ever

-compare to the way it was

-when I was around you...

I thought that I had found you...

Now that I'm falling from the top down...

I realize that I'm not on the ground

-I'm under it...

I'm fucking done with all of this dumb shit...

I'm about to uncover it...

And quit

-that's it

-I'm gone...

It's already been to long...

This is the end of the song...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

lonelyTEA!

Buy the Balls

Buy the Balls

Damn man, life's a trip...

Sometimes it really feels like it has got you buy the balls...

How can I really still be so confused...

I get so lost in thoughts as I think about you...

What do I do...

How do I choose...

I question the moon...

Since it always seems to have such a nice view...

My time has got to be up... 

Because buy now I know that I have paid my dues...

I get it, I lose...

But now what...

Is what I ask you...

Tell me all the stuff I can't do...

Please, I only want the truth...

I get so lonely in my room...

If only I didn’t always get so consumed...

But I do...

So I mean, what's the use...

Why the abuse...

So many different views...

Really I feel so alone amongst all of you...

It’s like you don't have a clue...

You say that you are realer then me but where's the proof...

Go ahead a make your move...

I’ll be happy to play the fool...

So you make your mark, and I’ll shot...

Why the hell would you start, if you knew you'd dispute...

Tell me what you have got to prove...

I'm not the one the one that you thought you knew...

I get caught in the spot between where I’ve been and where I’m going to...

What I’ve done and what I’m going to do...

All that I thought I forgot has now got me consumed...

So much bullshit now that I’ve all ready gone threw...

All of these times I’ve chose to let myself cry over the moon...

Have really done nothing for me...

Except for maybe thrown salt in old wounds...

Really guys why chose these things that I do...

Each night and each day...

Tell about noon...

And then back again for a time or two...

Why do I still try to pass the time here in my room...

Why can't I just move past this wak attitude...

You either need it or you don't...

I’m not even going to try and sit here and battle you...

Besides that...

Now I’m mad at you...

And I’m the type that you will never forget...

And in this life we live...

All that we really got is our respect...

I mean will you all please just take second...

And go and double check...

Take the time to figure it out...

Sort threw the mess...

You can try your best to just make some sense…

Because me, I’m just trying to vent…

Tea1

No Sense

No Sense

Now days...

I’m all about how things change...

Peoples perceptions of life...

Fall...

Fail...

And give way...

To another new breed...

But it's still not me...

It’s still not tea...

You can bet that I’m naughty...

But they must just not want me...

So I’m still here wanting...

Forever in debt to my past...

I swear if I could just go back...

I would be so fucking quick to relapse...

Just like a feen and his tracks...

You’ll forever remind me of my past...

Inside I am bleeding...

And still not seeing the facts...

All of this is really me...

So don't tell me to quit the act...

All of these cat's...

Could never step a foot where I’m at...

So y'all can go ahead and take a good look at my ass...

I mean after all...

Your crap...

Just another sorry product of crack...

Wow...

How raw was that...

Now all seems flat...

Yet another chance to inflate...

But I pass...

I mean what's with me...

Most of the time I don't even make any sense...

Allot of it is because I’m still dieing to forget...

At night I lie in my bed...

I cry all of the time...

Because my mind is upset...

That’s why...

I use all of my free time now just trying to vent...

So hopefully one day...

I will find myself back into the past tense...

But for now please feel free to go ahead and disregard any of this non-sense...

At least I’m honest...

teaone

I'm Still Here

I’m Still Here

I stay up all night and write to the moon…

I feel like my head and my heart…

Are trying to just tare me in two…

I mean...

Really now...

What is it with all of you dudes...

Will you please tell me...

What it is that you all find so compelling to do...

Wow...

Wouldn’t life be great...

If every choice we made...

Didn’t turn right into another mother fucking mistake...

But hey that's life...

I mean fuck it if it's not right...

Because either way...

Everyday seems to always be a fight...

I might be crossing the line...

I might be just wasting my life...

I might even just be a little fucking obnoxious at times...

But hey that's me...

And on that...

I mean who I am...

My eyes cross...

Just to collide...

My past still haunts from inside...

Regrets will forever flash threw my mind...

I try my best to just leave them behind...

Final conclusion... 

Denied...

I’m so fucking wrong that it's right...

You cross tea...

And you can bet that I’ll be doting your eyes...

So don 't be acting like a dear in head lights...

When I see you...

Either...

All surprised...

Because what you fail to realize...

Is real eyes just don't lie...

So y'all can give up your little petty ploy to survive...

Because when we take side's...

You will have no place to hide...

Please will you just listen to your momma boy...

And go make something of your life...

This place is all trial and error...

The power is choice...

You decide...

What is fair...

Decisions make future's...

I only hope though that I can meet you there...

I mean cause after all..

Two is a pair...

And circle get's the square...

Besides...

It wouldn't be fun if others didn't judge and compare...

A new breath...

Same old air...

Here’s to another night that I’m still here...

TEA!one