Girl I Fucking Loved You

Girl I Fucking Loved You

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(First cry first help)

I loved you girl...

You were my world...

Now I watch

-as everything seems to just unwind

-behind all of my past mistakes

-that I've made...

All shit I'll take back to my grave...

I'm going insane...

Each day that goes by...

More pain gets added to my life...

It's like I'm dieing inside...

I'm crying at night...

So much that I am trying to find...

I'm just looking for life here amongst the un-known...

Still chasing a dream that I'll never know...

Forever been broken...

Forever never going back...

Because I will always remember my past...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(Second cry for help)

I really loved you girl...

I thought you were the one for me...

Now look at what the fuck you've done to me...

I'm done you see...

It's dumb to me...

The way that

-some people can be...

I just don't understand...

Why I couldn't be your man...

What went wrong with the plan...

It seemed so right at first...

And then one night...

Everything in my sight...

Happened to burst right before my eyes...

All of these

-hi nice to meet you

-nice try's... 

Nice lies

-nice guys end up in the past...

I swear man I will never back...

I will never fucking forget my past...

I will never be able to out live the regrets that I've got now...

I'm fucking falling from the top down...

I'm about to get hurt...

-So much I just wished that I could make work...

I feel so alone on this earth...

And it's only gotten worse for me since birth...

I can feel my heart now trying to burst...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

I don't think I'll ever let it go...

I need you

-to believe me now...

I loved you girl...

(Third cry for help)

I really loved you...

I thought that nothing could ever

-compare to the way it was

-when I was around you...

I thought that I had found you...

Now that I'm falling from the top down...

I realize that I'm not on the ground

-I'm under it...

I'm fucking done with all of this dumb shit...

I'm about to uncover it...

And quit

-that's it

-I'm gone...

It's already been to long...

This is the end of the song...

(Chant for help)

Girl I Fucking Loved You...

lonelyTEA!

Buy the Balls

Buy the Balls

Damn man, life's a trip...

Sometimes it really feels like it has got you buy the balls...

How can I really still be so confused...

I get so lost in thoughts as I think about you...

What do I do...

How do I choose...

I question the moon...

Since it always seems to have such a nice view...

My time has got to be up... 

Because buy now I know that I have paid my dues...

I get it, I lose...

But now what...

Is what I ask you...

Tell me all the stuff I can't do...

Please, I only want the truth...

I get so lonely in my room...

If only I didn’t always get so consumed...

But I do...

So I mean, what's the use...

Why the abuse...

So many different views...

Really I feel so alone amongst all of you...

It’s like you don't have a clue...

You say that you are realer then me but where's the proof...

Go ahead a make your move...

I’ll be happy to play the fool...

So you make your mark, and I’ll shot...

Why the hell would you start, if you knew you'd dispute...

Tell me what you have got to prove...

I'm not the one the one that you thought you knew...

I get caught in the spot between where I’ve been and where I’m going to...

What I’ve done and what I’m going to do...

All that I thought I forgot has now got me consumed...

So much bullshit now that I’ve all ready gone threw...

All of these times I’ve chose to let myself cry over the moon...

Have really done nothing for me...

Except for maybe thrown salt in old wounds...

Really guys why chose these things that I do...

Each night and each day...

Tell about noon...

And then back again for a time or two...

Why do I still try to pass the time here in my room...

Why can't I just move past this wak attitude...

You either need it or you don't...

I’m not even going to try and sit here and battle you...

Besides that...

Now I’m mad at you...

And I’m the type that you will never forget...

And in this life we live...

All that we really got is our respect...

I mean will you all please just take second...

And go and double check...

Take the time to figure it out...

Sort threw the mess...

You can try your best to just make some sense…

Because me, I’m just trying to vent…

Tea1

No Sense

No Sense

Now days...

I’m all about how things change...

Peoples perceptions of life...

Fall...

Fail...

And give way...

To another new breed...

But it's still not me...

It’s still not tea...

You can bet that I’m naughty...

But they must just not want me...

So I’m still here wanting...

Forever in debt to my past...

I swear if I could just go back...

I would be so fucking quick to relapse...

Just like a feen and his tracks...

You’ll forever remind me of my past...

Inside I am bleeding...

And still not seeing the facts...

All of this is really me...

So don't tell me to quit the act...

All of these cat's...

Could never step a foot where I’m at...

So y'all can go ahead and take a good look at my ass...

I mean after all...

Your crap...

Just another sorry product of crack...

Wow...

How raw was that...

Now all seems flat...

Yet another chance to inflate...

But I pass...

I mean what's with me...

Most of the time I don't even make any sense...

Allot of it is because I’m still dieing to forget...

At night I lie in my bed...

I cry all of the time...

Because my mind is upset...

That’s why...

I use all of my free time now just trying to vent...

So hopefully one day...

I will find myself back into the past tense...

But for now please feel free to go ahead and disregard any of this non-sense...

At least I’m honest...

teaone

I'm Still Here

I’m Still Here

I stay up all night and write to the moon…

I feel like my head and my heart…

Are trying to just tare me in two…

I mean...

Really now...

What is it with all of you dudes...

Will you please tell me...

What it is that you all find so compelling to do...

Wow...

Wouldn’t life be great...

If every choice we made...

Didn’t turn right into another mother fucking mistake...

But hey that's life...

I mean fuck it if it's not right...

Because either way...

Everyday seems to always be a fight...

I might be crossing the line...

I might be just wasting my life...

I might even just be a little fucking obnoxious at times...

But hey that's me...

And on that...

I mean who I am...

My eyes cross...

Just to collide...

My past still haunts from inside...

Regrets will forever flash threw my mind...

I try my best to just leave them behind...

Final conclusion... 

Denied...

I’m so fucking wrong that it's right...

You cross tea...

And you can bet that I’ll be doting your eyes...

So don 't be acting like a dear in head lights...

When I see you...

Either...

All surprised...

Because what you fail to realize...

Is real eyes just don't lie...

So y'all can give up your little petty ploy to survive...

Because when we take side's...

You will have no place to hide...

Please will you just listen to your momma boy...

And go make something of your life...

This place is all trial and error...

The power is choice...

You decide...

What is fair...

Decisions make future's...

I only hope though that I can meet you there...

I mean cause after all..

Two is a pair...

And circle get's the square...

Besides...

It wouldn't be fun if others didn't judge and compare...

A new breath...

Same old air...

Here’s to another night that I’m still here...

TEA!one

CurbServ

CurbServ
your out of this planet...
loud, just like you planed it...
fuck a standord...
lets bang this shit, till are hand hurts...
show everyone what happens, when you mix fun, with hard work...
the truth is, the third day is just like the first...
all that can be proven, will soon curve, surface and burst...
so i feel that it's are duty...
to continue to curb serv these nerds...
let's give them all that it's worth...
say word...
lol...
hit a white boy up...
don't be a fag...
TEA!one-

Still Looking

Still Looking
I'm still looking for a meaning in life...
Constantly repeating myself for you guys...
I don't even know why the hell I still try...
It makes no sense...
I must just be sick in the head...
Here I am fighting to survive...
Even though...
I'd rather be dead...
I'm so sorry if none of this shit even makes sense...
Once again it's me just trying to vent...
I'm telling you guys...
I'm dyeing within...
Upset in my mind...
The never ending battle that I have been trying to win...
There's no denieing I'm sick...
I'll lie straight to your face...
"Go ahead kid, you got what it takes."
When in reality...
You'd get squashed like some grapes...
I would like to have a little bit of something else for a change...
Will someone please take me away...
I don't want a thing to do with you fags...
Y'all can go and have a parade...
I'm straight...
As in out of my brain...
Your late...
As in you should of never came...
I don't know not-a-nel-nutta about your name...
BITCH!
Tea one is insane...
Ever since the day that I came...
Up until I'm laying in a grave...
forevertea1

Where's My Truck

Where's My Truck
i breath deep...
keep to myself...
well...
at least usually...
look what you do to me...
i'm forced to kill these feelings nightly...
more then likely...
i might be...
still stuck inside of a dream...
i look for peace somewhere in between...
the past and where i'm gonna be...
i'm lost inside of my head it seems...
searching through thoughts just trying to see...
come and walk the line with me...
everyone likes a little company...
who know's...
maybe you can help it all fade away...
fuck it even if today's the day...
i'm going to just stay...
sane...
i will forever remean...
tea...
why...
cause i'm me...
why beacause i'm weak...
why...
could it be that i haven't fucking even slept a wink in weeks...
belive me...
what i really needs a release...
that's why i...
chose to unleash on beats...
blood types unique...
i feel that i must express my right to speek...
thoughts explained are left empty...
fill in the blanks...
why i try and erase...
feelings do change...
believe me i have seen both days...
i've lost things...
yes...
i rock stains...
past mistakes...
surface and break...
the way it was...
but that was us...
but now that's fucked up...
tell me when do i get my luck...
i mean come on you guys...
where's my truck...
travisTEA

You Say You Love Me

You Say You Love Me
you say you love me...
but then it's like you don't care...
one minute I'm a big part your life...
then the next, you try and act as if i was never even there...
I'm so sorry that I've managed to make you feel this way...
but it was never an intention of mine to hurt you...
i only wished you wanted this relationship to work as much as i do...
your my heaven, my earth, sky and moon...
you move me in ways that enlighten my mood...
when you walk in the door, your smile shines and brightens the room...
if only i could show you somehow, what I'm going through...
i mean, i really thought you were an angel...
sent down from god, to come and help save this fool...
but now it look's like my soul, is going to have to do this all on it's own...
so will you please believe me, when i say that i love you more then you'll ever know...
because your the one person in this world, that can make me feel whole...
casualTEA

Thin Air

Thin Air
i start to question myself...
because i'm not sure how i should feel anymore...
i'm starting to head back down that road...
that killed me before...
i swear life is just like a revolveing door...
always moveing but not really going anywhere...
what happens when i do reach where i'm headed and their is nothing there...
am i wrong to be scared...
has it been to long for me to still care...
i feel like i'm falling threw thin air...
so i'm trying my best to just not get hurt...
i mean fuck what it's worth...
all that i ask for is what i deserve...
balance comes from the earth...
so why swerve...
why can't i do at least one thing that works...
inside i'm crying...
i can fill my spine trying to burst...
there is no denying i'm cursed...
teaone

Impress You

Impress You
baby...
you look so fucking pretty while you lay here next to me...
just to feel you breathing...
is all i really need...
i'm so glad that you allow me to try and impress you...
just don't forget the best is yet to come...
so until then i ask you to please hold on...
because in life once you've lost something it's gone...
reameber to always stay close...
we are far from gone...
and no where near done...
so towards the future let's move on as one...
TEA!one

You've Got Me Hooked

You've Got Me Hooked
it's all about you you've got my attention even though you are not here...
all i can seem to do is think about the way i feel when you are near...
my emotions burn inside since the night still remains un-clear...
but i will wait because i love the way you taste...
my breath is taken by your scent in the air...
i just wanna run my hands through your hair...
i wanna look deep into your past and compare...
i wanna make you remember me for all the wonderful time's that we shared...
because you turn my nights to moments...
with the way you touch me in places that i didn't even know were there...
with you i just feel complete...
my other half...
they way we connect from are head to our feet...
i only hope it lasts...
i only hope you don't take all of this the wrong way...
i think i'm going to fast...
i've told you how i understand...
and believe me i want us to go as slow as we can...
because a lot of times stuff gets over looked...
and i wanna not just read but study every damn page in your book...
what more can i say girl...
you've got me hooked...
tea1

I've Lost Control Now

I've Lost Control Now

i've lost control now...

as i rapidly start to fall...

against my better judgement...

i let myself get involved...

i mean why...

after all of the night's that i lied in bed...

and just cried myself to sleep...

there is something about you...

that really gets to me... 

will you just let me make you happy please...

i'm more then willing to do what ever it takes...

belive me...

i know all about past mistakes...

i've made a few here through out my days...

i too have seen love change...

people come...

and then they get replaced...

i mean...

so much of what i once was...

has now gone to waste...

shit i use to wish for...

i now slowly watch fade away...

i just feel so fucking alone in this place...

i've had to learn on my own in this game...

and belive me...

life will not wait...

now is the time...

because tomarrow can be to late...

you do things to me...

that i can't even explain...

please don't take this the wrong way...

i'm really just trying to explain...

i think you could be the one for me...

because when your around...

it kills the pain...

i'm willing to see what love may bring...

because with you i feel complete...

i'm ready to risk it all again...

just to see if maybe...

we were ment to be... 

as i proceed to go for everything...

in hopes of a better day...

i pray to god every night...

to please not ever take you away from me...

and all i can do is just wait and see...

as you lie asleep here next to me...

i kiss your head...

to get closer to the things...

you think about in your sleep...
teaone